I woke up the next morning to find Ann in my room. She waited while I showered and put on some mascara and lipstick. Ann told me to wear my aerobics kit and watched me as I dressed.
“You know Susan, your boobs are starting to show” she said as I put on the leotard.
I felt my chest and it was true. My breast were beginning to develop enough to see and feel them.
“In a few weeks you will be able to wear a bra without any padding, Susan” said Ann and then added, “And by then we should be able to notice your hips and bum getting bigger. You should be able to try stockings and suspenders then”
Ann spoke as if she believed that I would be happy at the thought that my body was becoming more and more feminine. But to be honest I did not know how to feel. I was relieved that they were pleased with me as this would mean that I would get my capsule and not have to suffer, yet at the same time it meant that I was becoming what they intended I should become, a girl!
When Ann was satisfied with my appearance we went for breakfast. Ann had not referred to the previous night and we ate our cereal and d***k our coffee with Ann telling me that I was starting to look quite pretty.
I asked her how long would my treatment last and she surprised me when she said that once my body started changing it would change quite quickly.
“And then Dr Knowles will make you into a real woman. Susan. Your body will look and function just like mine” she said.
I knew what she meant by this and took a deep breath. Once my penis had been removed it would be gone forever. Even now I could at least be made to look like a man again, but it would be too late when I had a woman’s genitals that would make me perform like a woman.
Ann tried to reassure me by saying that long before then my emotions would be so feminine that I would gladly embrace my fate.
I had nearly finished my breakfast when Eric entered the room. He looked at me and smiled and my mind went back to what had happened last night. He spoke to Ann and then as he turned to leave he whispered to me.
“If you are a good girl today Susan, perhaps I will stop by and tuck you in tonight”
The bl**d drained from face, I knew exactly what he meant and Ann must have noticed the expression on my face for she touched my arm and said,
“You really will have to get used to the idea that men like Eric will use you whenever and however it suits them. It is the lot of women to be fucked by men and you, Susan, are a woman now!”
She was so emphatic in the way she spoke to me that I gulped and drank the rest of my coffee.
When we had finished Ann took me through the aerobics routine for nearly 2 hours. Then after freshening up I was told to change into a skirt and jumper. I again wore a body shaper with the breast implants, tights and shoes with a small heel.
Ann told me that I would soon get used to wearing shoes with a heel and that gradually I would wear shoes with even bigger heels.
“Men like to see girls wearing high heels, Susan. They make your legs look even longer and worn with stockings and suspenders or a basque men find them irresistible”
While I dressed Ann made us a cup of coffee. While we drank it Ann began telling me what fun a girl can have in choosing what underwear she wore.
“Even under just a skirt and jumper a girl can wear something really sensuous. Soft silk or satin that feels lovely next to the skin. And you can wear things with frills or lace all over and only you know how sexy you look underneath just an ordinary skirt and jumper”
Ann picked up the lingerie catalogue and began showing me the sorts of bras, basques, panties and underskirts that I would wear and she tried to explain to me what i felt like to wear them.
“Anyway” she said, “You soon be wearing them yourself and then you will find out”
I tried pointing out that some of the things in the catalogue looked impractical or uncomfortable but she just laughed
“You soon find out. It is not as if you are going to do any work in them. You wear them to feel sexy and make your man want to fuck you senseless”
“My man?” I asked
“Of course, Susan. You will soon find that you will want man. Only a man will be able to satisfy your needs. You will have them you know. The oestrogen will see to that. And you will be able to satisfy him too, no matter what way he wants you”
We finished our coffee and Ann took me for a walk around the clinic’s gardens. It was breezy and the wind kept lifting my skirt. I was surprised to find it quite pleasant and even smiled. Ann saw me smile and chuckled,
“You must smile more often, Susan. It makes you look very pretty”
We passed other people walking in the gardens and I realised that some of the men were looking at me. Ann smiled and told me that no one knew why I was there and that they were looking at me because I was so pretty.
The rest of the day I spent in being taught how to style my own hair, how to walk and sit in a ladylike manner and how to gesture like a female.
My lessons finished for the day Ann took me back to my room and suggested that I read for a while. It turned out that I had to read a selection of women’s books, from novels to books on fashion, cosmetics, dressmaking and the like. Ann said that I would be asked questions about what I had read and would be expected to know the answers.
Ann then turned to me and shocked me by saying that I needed to convince her that I was trying my best to learn how to be feminine. I asked how could I do this to which she replied that wanted me to prove that I now accepted that as a woman I must submit to men.
Ann said that after dinner that evening she would help me dress as feminine as possible and that I would then have to seek out Eric and “seduce” him. Unless I did so she would withhold the capsule and leave me in agony until she was satisfied that I had learnt my lesson.
I was stunned, after the previous night the last thing I wanted to do was to actually come on to him. I knew what it would mean and what Eric would expect me to do.
“It is for your own good, Susan. Once you have learnt this lesson you will be able to enjoy your femininity” She said smiling. Ann then told me that I should soak myself in the bath and when dry rub body lotion in all over. I was to put on my dressing gown and wait for her to return with my evening meal on a tray.
As I began running my bath Ann left locking the door behind her. I lay in the bath contemplating the evening to come. I was now expected not only to allow my self to be treated as a woman but to actively encourage a man to treat me like one.
Lying in the bath I was conscious of how my body was changing. The soapy water on my chest only served to emphasise my developing breasts and my hips and bottom were definitely becoming rounder. I now had the hands and arms of a woman and looking at myself in the mirror I could find nothing masculine in the shape of my face.
I did as I was told and dried myself off and anointed by body with perfumed body lotion before slipping on my dressing gown and slippers to wait for Ann to bring me my meal.
While I waited I began reading one of the books I had been told I must read, “Little Women”. I had got as far as Chapter 2 when Ann came in carrying a tray.
While I ate, Ann spoke words of encouragement to me. Although she left me in no doubt that I had to “come on” to Eric, she sought to convince me that it was for my own good and that it would help me accept the fact that I was no longer a man.
Ann left me to finish eating and returned several minutes later with so more clothes for me, which she laid out on the bed.
“I have brought you something pretty to wear tonight” she said and held up a pink chiffon dress. “And I think it is about time that you found out what it is like to wear stockings instead of tights” Ann added.
Ann helped to dress. First Ann helped to put on a white bodyshaper which had underwired pretty stretch lace bra cups and lacy side panels. It was complete with 4 adjustable suspenders.
It was very tight fitting and completely hid the slight bulge caused by my stitched down penis. It also had the effect of squeezing my developing breasts upwards and giving me something of a cleavage. Ann studied my breasts and tucked some tissues inside the bra cups. The effect was to give me the appearance of having a reasonable pair of boobs and a cleavage that was real.
Ann laughed as I struggled to put on a pair of white sheers stockings with lacy tops and to fasten them to the suspenders. When I had done so she told me to look at myself in the mirror. I did so and got quite a shock.
I was getting used to seeing myself as a girl whenever I looked in the mirror, but this time, dressed just in my underwear I looked even more feminine. Not just feminine, I looked quite sexy. To my amazement I found that the feelings I had were nothing like I had experienced before.
Only a short time ago I would have found it quite arousing to see a girl with such shapely figure wearing a basque and stockings. But my feelings at seeing myself as that girl dressed so sexily were almost of pleasure and satisfaction.
In a way I was pleased that I looked so nice. A part of me was saying that if I was to be a girl I was going to be a real one and as attractive and desirable as possible. I suppose it was a case of “if you are going to do a job, do it properly”
I was still staring at my reflection when Ann nudged my arm and told me to put on the dress she had brought. It was of pink chiffon. The skirt was lined with pink silk and it had a wide neckline and little puff sleaves.
I put it on and Ann smiled as she detected the feeling of pleasure I felt as I smoothed the dress down. The neckline was trimmed in pink lace and was low enough for the tops of my breasts to show. The feeling of the soft skirt against my legs was wonderful.
My shoes were pink satin sling backs with a 3 inch heel.
Once dressed Ann watched me as I put on some make up. She made sure that I did so properly and the way I had been shown. Ann helped me to brush my hair and as a finishing touch she tied a small bow made of pink ribbon into it.
From the moment that I had looked at myself in the mirror I had forgotten the reason for me getting dressed up like this. I had just concentrated on making myself look as beautiful as possible and I had done so without realising that I was doing it.
Not only did I look like a girl I was beginning to feel like a girl. My reactions and feelings were becoming feminine and for the first time even I knew that it was true.
“You see, Susan” said Ann waking me from my daze, “You are really quite a beautiful girl already and I can tell that are beginning to enjoy feeling feminine. Now all you have to do is learn how to handle men”
Her words brought my mind back to the fact that I was dressed like this in order to offer myself to Eric for his pleasure.
” I know that it sounds like I am being cruel to you by threatening not to give you your capsule, but I am convinced that the more you act as a girl the more you will come to accept that you can only ever be a girl from now on. The sooner you accept that you are a very attractive girl the sooner you will be able to enjoy life fully”
Ann then told me how I should go about pleasing Eric. The thought at not getting my capsule on time f***ed me to concentrate on what she told me to do, no matter how it would make Eric react.
When she was convinced that I was ready she unlocked the door of my room and together we walked down the corridor to the communal lounge were Eric and Dr Knowles would be.
As I entered the lounge behind Ann I took a deep breath at the thought of how I was going to entice Eric back to my room.
Eric was sitting in one of the lounge chairs reading a paper and Ann and I walked over to where he and Dr Knowles were sitting. Dr Knowles and Eric looked up and Ann smiled at them,
“Good evening Dr Knowles, Eric” she said and then added, “Susan and I have just been for a walk. Do you think Susan looks pretty tonight?” she asked.
“Very pretty” said Dr Knowles turning to Eric. Eric looked at me and grinned. He looked me up and down and was obviously pleased with what he saw. He smiled and patted the seat next to his,
“Will you join us, Susan” he said.
I replied that I would be pleased to and sat down on the chair taking great care to cross my legs in such a fashion that he would catch a glimpse of the fact that I was wearing stockings.
“You look very beautiful, Susan” said Eric and I fluttered my eyelashes slightly and thanked him for the compliment.
“Ann has been helping me dress. I hope you like it” I said as demurely as possible.
Eric replied that I looked very nice indeed.
Meantime Ann said to Dr Knowles that she needed to discuss something with him in his office and they both left, leaving me and Eric alone.
Eric was quite happy looking at my legs and smiled when he noticed my cleavage. I swallowed hard the spoke,
“I hope I did not disappoint you last night, Eric. I said. “Its just that I have a lot to learn about being a woman”
Eric grinned and said that I had not disappointed him and that I was learning fast.
“What I really need” I said, “Is a man to help me understand. A man like you perhaps?”
Eric grinned again and said that he would be happy to help me.
“First of all” he said, “A pretty girl like you should be sitting much closer to the man she is with” He waved his hand motioning for me to sit on the arm of his chair. I did so and Eric patted my knee, his hand lingering there for a little bit.
“Now with you that I close I can touch your thigh whenever I want” Eric said and his fingers moved from my knee and under the hem of my dress.
“Now I can tell that you are wearing stockings. I bet that you look very nice in them. Are you wearing suspenders or a basque?”
I f***ed myself to smile at him and said in a low voice,
” Ann told me to wear a body shaper with suspenders. As to whether I look nice, perhaps you could tell me.”
Eric leered at me and with his fingers now on the tops of my stockings said,
“I would have to see you without your dress. But we can do that later, now you and I should go for a little walk in the gardens and I will tell you how to walk with a male companion”
He stood up and took hold of my hand and led me out of the room and into the gardens. It was a surprise when Eric opened the door for me and I caught a glimpse of Ann and Dr Knowles observing us from the doorway of his office. Ann winked at me as Eric took hold of my hand again and I fell into step at his side.
“Now a man likes a girl to be close to him” he said and put his arm around my waist pulling me closer to him. “That lets me feel your body as we walk”
As we walked Eric’s hand was feeling me through my dress and he obviously found it arousing. I tried to respond by letting my head rest on his shoulder. We walked for a while in silence before Eric spoke again.
“You do feel soft and feminine, Susan, and you are a very pretty girl, you know”
I thanked him and said in as sweet a voice as I could,
“Do you really think I am pretty, Eric. Will men like me, do you find me attractive?”
Eric’s response was to spin me around and place his hands behind my back and pull me to him.
“Susan, I find you very attractive and men will love you” he said and tilted my face to his and kissed me on the lips. This time I knew how I was supposed to react and allowed him to kiss me hard. This time I did not try to pull away, instead I allowed him to use his tongue to search for mine.
Our tongues entwined and I began to relax. My feelings were still a little confused but I was beginning to feel pleasure at being kissed. Eric’s hands were feeling my back and bottom and then the sides of my small breasts.
I felt my body responding to Eric’s touch of its own accord and the response was certainly a feminine response. Small as my breasts were I could feel my nipples becoming very sensitive and my breasts stiffen.
I could feel Eric’s response through my dress. He had a hard on and I could feel his penis bulging pressed against my groin.
Eric finished kissing my lips and the began kissing my neck. My body reacted even more ardently. He whispered in my ear,
” I see that you like that Susan. And your touche is getting nice and rounded. plenty for me to grab hold of.”
He kissed me again and this time he pressed his body even tighter against mine and them jiggled it slightly so that I could feel his penis moving and pressing into my groin.
I found myself completely under the control of the female hormones which now filled my body. Although my mind was still largely masculine my body was dictating my responses and it was becoming feminine. To my astonishment I found that my body wanted more and wanted to be treated as a woman’s.
With each touch of Eric’s hands, I could feel my masculinity begin to fade and I knew that once gone it would never come back. Soon it would be gone forever.
Eric stopped kissing me and whispered in my ear,
“Lets go to your room, Susan, and I will show you how attractive I find you”
His meaning was clear and yet I found myself actually wanting him in a way I had never felt before. I was sexually aroused in a way I had never been before. My penis, no longer capable of an erection, felt numb, and what I felt in my groin was like a hollow ache that needed to be filled. All thought of having to take capsule to avoid pain had left my head.
I let Eric lead me by the hand to my room where he immediately pulled me to him and kissed me again. As we kissed I felt his hand undo the zip at the back of my dress and felt it fall down around my ankles.
Eric then led me to the bed and picking me up in his arms laid me down on top of it. He stood back and looked down at me and smiled his approval at the way I looked.
I looked up at him, unsure what would happen next but so full of feminine desires that I still did not understand.
Eric lay on the bed beside me and began kissing my neck and shoulders, gradually moving lower to the top of my breast. With one hand he slipped his fingers under the top of my bodyshaper and began to finger my nipple. The sensation was strangely pleasant and I wanted more.
I could feel Eric remove his shirt and some new found feminine instinct made me start to undo his belt and unfasten his trousers. It was only when Eric had slid his hand between my legs that we both realised that I could not do what we both wanted.
Eric quickly removed his hand as his finger touched my numb penis. But I knew that I wanted him some how and there was only one way left to me.
As Eric lay back on the bed I shuffled around until my head was in his lap. This time I had no hesitation in opening my mouth wide and wrapping my lips around his penis.
I sucked and licked with greater enthusiasm this time. This time I tried to prolong the experience and give pleasure to Eric and myself.
When Eric finally came and his semen filled my throat I swallowed it eagerly. Unlike the previous night his semen did not taste so bad and I sucked at his penis to get every last drop.
Eric pulled me back up the bed and kissed me. I felt confused and yet contented in a way I had never imagined.
“Did I do it right this time?” I asked and Eric smiled
“You were terrific, Susan. I have never had a girl do it so well. And soon I will show you what a man can do for a girl, yes?”
I nodded and was only faintly surprised at the fact that I meant it.
We lay on the bed together for a while. I felt so contented and safe that I nearly forgot about having to take my capsule.
Suddenly there was a knock on the door and Ann’s voice asking if she could come in. She must have known that Eric was with me as she waited long enough for him to dress and give me a quick kiss.
Ann came in and Eric left the room giving me a wink as he went. Ann looked at me lying serenely on the bed still wearing just my underwear.
“Well Susan, I can see from Eric’s happy smile that this evening was a success. Now it is time for your capsule and I think you have earned it”
I sat up with a start, suddenly remembering that I needed the capsule. Ann handed it to me with a glass of water and I took it quickly then stretched out again on the bed.
“Even more successful than I thought” said Ann, “If you have forgotten all about your capsule”
Ann then made me tell her all about my time with Eric and I had to go into detail as to how I had felt.
“I think it is time I had a word with Dr Knowles” Ann said and left me to get undressed and ready for bed.
I went asl**p that night, my mind trying to come to terms with the fact that my masculinity was nearly gone and that I was almost a woman.
I woke up the next morning to find Ann in my room. She waited while I showered and put on some mascara and lipstick. Ann told me to wear my aerobics kit and watched me as I dressed.